Parental Protection

As a mother of two girls I feel it is my number one duty to protect them all the time. Which leads me into my next section of my life. After everything came out to my mother and father I felt the protection was not there. To me it felt that it was an inconvenience to their "life style". My mother was in denial (in my opinion) because she was blinded my her trips, jewelry, home, and all the material things that she felt was important. This is because she stated to me that she never had that with my father, her first husband. Really? My father was a ladies man so he was (in my eyes) enjoying his life because that is what he choose to do. (I feel they love me but sometimes I don't feel it is a true affection) Please understand that as a child I still love them because they brought me into this world but it has been a difficult pill to swallow, of course.

I made my mother aware of what happened when I was 15 years old. It was made easier for me to tell her because a friend of the family at the time, flat out asked me. How she knew....I never asked her why she asked but I was relieved that someone could notice and it was great that I didn't have to tell my mother alone. This shocking news was scary for me to tell her and it seemed to shock my mother as well. But I soon realized that the feeling she gave at the Tampa restaurant changed once we arrived home and things settled, authorities were involved, and then my world changed once again.